i miss him

- didn't really expect the reactions and effects to my own self.
it hurts.
if its possible, there might be
a large shit hole inside of my heart.

because i just lost my baby.
my dearly darling..

10.4.11

my baby got away... :'( im so sad...

hello hello..

nak test aje...
hidup ke tak hidup blog mapre aku ni..
night peeps! ;)

stay up till midnight ?

Paettt ehhh....

SOMEWHERE . AROUND KK .

withh FARUL HA HALIM & ABDUL RAHIM HA KARIM .

memelac ehhh.. inda kahh...

Long gone =)

for a couple of decades ?
blum jugaa ba . tiada payaa la kao bikin riuh - riuh dakat sanaa .
Seya sudaa tiada kisaa sma seya punya blog .
Sekali..... seya bukaa , butul - butul lucu baa . macam - macam jugaa jari seya type dulu .

ada yg pelac =D
ada jiwa - jiwa .

banyak jugaa nama kao aa .
aku sudaa bosan tengok muka kao .
kao nii.. memang tiada bawa income dakat seya baa .
ada hubungan sma kao, bikin aku mcm pelac sjaa . tiada untung dia . nayan sja ada .
hahahha.....

kao punya mulut baa memang manis bagai gula melaka yg sering
aku punya bapak bubuh dalam diya punya kopi .

tpi kita tengok skarang , memang butul - butul paet la seya tengok ...

Joseph . *bueeekkk...*

dulu seya bilang seya tiada mau tinggalkan kao,
tapiii.. kao tiada dingar berita idup seya skarg .....
seya butul -butul sronok sudaa baa tiada lagi dgn kao .
sudaa aku bilang , kao ni memang tiada paedah ni .

okay laa, seya arap -arap kao bahagia dgn siapa tu, perempuan yg punya tattoo dakat blkng deya tu
ygg samseng - samseng tu .
Kao bilang sama deya, kao memang dengki la dgn seya .
bole ka deya jgn pnggil kao ayg . jijik seya tengok .hahahahahahaha...

ini malam seya sudaa puas hina kao . dan idup kao .
tpi tiada la seya smpai ati mau doa -doakn idup kao susaa sngt .
seya doakn juga kao happy - happy dgn deya .

baa ok laa kao pigi mampus la sikarang .
seya mao enjoyyy... hahaha...

Urang nda kan sanang mliat kau sanang . ( like i give a damn on it ?)

I Miss You ....

Keep In Mind My Dear .

I Would Never Hate You .

Even Sometimes I've Had A Higher Voice
Or Probably Screamed At You .

Even I Didn't Message You That Often .

You Gotta Understand .

I Just Have Some Troubles With Myself .

I Don't Want To Carry You In It .

Stay With Your Happy Family .

And Give Me Some Time .

But Once Again I'm Reminding You .
Do Not Say That Im Hating You .

I Just Need Time .

I Can't Just Organize Everything That Easily .

Please Take Care .
='(

I Love You . 13 .

Hey There Joseph .

Hello Joseph .
Guess What . Yea.. I Message You . And You Receive It Right .
Shit . What Am I Talking About . erm . Anyway .
I .. Got This Stupid Instinct Symptom Thingy . ( What The Fuck ?)

Look . I Can't Sleep . Another Fuckin' Sleepless Night . Hey ..
Are You Doing Fine There . Because I Can't Stay Long . I Need
To Know What You Are Up To There . I Kept Worrying . It's Better For
You Not To Reply My Message . Because The Way You Reply My Text ( 1:37 ) ....
It Looks Fake . Im Sorry To Say But , I Just Feel It .
BUKAN Beuri eh . I know . There Must Be Something Going On .

Because . .
I Have These Sleepless Nights For Almost A Week .
And It's Making Me Suffer For Not Having Enough Sleep .
Make It Stop Will Ya . Jackass . uhhh ...

What Ever It Is . Just Make it Stop .
Cause I Always Have The Connection On Everything You Do .
Wuuuu ~~ Scary ~~

I'm Not Joking SouljaBoy .
I'm Tired Here .
No Matter How Hard I Try Not To Care , But It Always Will Be Hunting Me .
Forcing Me To Know What You're Up To !

Well . Im ( Once Again .....) Trying To Look On The Brightside .
Maybe It's Just Some Stupid Immature Doubts .
Yeah , Whatever . (-_-) .

Okay . Im Off .

I Love You (-_-)

And Make Me Sleep .

mcm2 .

Macam - macam
.
Cry lh apa lah
.
Mihir .
Cam Baie hahaha . .

You Have Abandoned Me For A Long,Long Time.

What DO You Care .
Weather i'm sleepless or not .
weather i'm eating or not .
Dead or alive. wow labih bui .

Far Or Near .
Oo yeah, I've Saw The Difference .
Trust Or No Trust
Is It Really Important To You?

Useless Doubts .
I Don't Even Mind To Get Hurt .
Huh.
Hurt?

Pfft .

I hate myself! !

! You realy know how to make me cry! Im fuckin pissed off! You make me sick! Im sick! You don't love me!

-

well you know what,
i admit my actions were a bit immature.
i don't have any other better solutions.

i wanted you to know,
that both of us makin menyimpang arh lain.
both of us gets jealous that easily
and we don't discuss about it.
leave it just like that.

like your actions just now.
i understand.
Part of it is also my fault.
but those are just normal pictures
and everybody does those kinds of pose.

im kinda.. not satisfied with your attitude.
when it comes to me, you would just ignore.
IGNORE.IGNORE.IGNORE.

so tell me what should i do next.
what?
tell me. seriously i don't know what else could i do.
i don't even know how can we explain this.
a simple matter, becoming a huge pathetic matter.

we both were in a far distance.
and that's why trust and understanding is nowhere to be seen.
you make me pissed off. but still I'd stay.
And i would never leave.
You Hear Me Yusuf?
I Would Never Leave Even We Argue All The Time .
I Would Never Leave Even You Hurt My Feelings
For So Many Times That I Couldn't Count Anymore .
I Would Never Leave .

Yes. I Do Blame Myself too.
I am Sorry That I Didn't Think About Your Feelings.
I Am Sorry That I Have Become An Arrogant Bastard.
I'm Sorry.

I am Trying to fix this situation.
As we all know, it's not that damn easy.
I Trusted You.
I Would Support You In Everything You Do.
I Will.

But Just Please.
Please. Please, I Don't know what the fuck am i saying.

Understand me Like your Pure Best Friend.

In This Beautiful Ramadhan.
Can We Just Have Some Rest.

Forgive Me Anyway.
I Would Never Do My Stupid Mistakes Ever Again.

KTW - askar plastic - Baru pure plastik !

Ini hari... banyak bosan.. banyak bau..
takda keja, cari keja .

- Here's Some Photo's of plastic soldiers -

ragat plg... hahaha

ecececehh...

Karipap Vs Begedel
nya c kaling.

macaaaam th ku taus pndai makai bery. ejaan pun nda tntu luus.

plastik

a tribute to my sisters... putri pinky....

Help me .

Help me. I have no idea,but just help me.

Setiap daun terpaksa gugur,

dunia hanya pinjaman bagi kita semua,
setiap hari bisa jadi hari terakhir kita,
tenung dan ungkayah kn sekeliling mu,
setiap daun terpaksa gugur,

kerna tiada apa yang kekal dan abadi.,
usah di tangisi yg telah pergi,
tegak kan lah tempat mu berdiri,
sendiri kita bangun, d waktu terjatuh nya martabat diri.

-jatul

We Lived In Different Genre's

Different Genre's?
It's Fine with me =)

I'm inlove with bg pahmi's voice,
&&& Bg Rhyme's voice .


Effa && Bg Mitt Has a Good Talent .
Kayah Pun ada talent,
Only we can't see it clearly =)

GO "HHG" ( Haji Hitam Generations )
We all have the blood of music .

sigh*

I am so pissed off without you.
I need you to be with me here.

stupid migraine !
You've ruined my entire day .

I Miss You.. ='(

I Miss You Sooo so Much..
My baby went far away..

......

Do take care my dear,
cause i do concern about your health..
you can always call or message me every time
you got any problem..
I'm always here..
I'll never step far away from
where you've found me..

......

I Have To Wait..
For You..

I love You..

And I hope you'll love me too..

- My Thirteen ..

='(

My baby when home to his nest today ='(
god... Nyilunya hati ini...

Owwh.. Im touched..

We were both young when i first saw you,
i closed my eyes and the flashback starts..
. . . .

He speaks with his heart..
I never felt so appreciated..
He's mine.. And i hope it'll be forever..
He often melts my heart..
He even knows how to love me..
He knows how to persuade me..

I wish to be with you..
I wish god will let me live with you
in the future..
You saved me from hurting myself..

And i don't know how i fall inlove with you..

I just wanted to say..
I love you thirteen..
=)